I hate to admit that it is hard for me to forgive and forget the humiliation I had to go through at work, where I had to face constant belittling, put downs and criticisms for almost a year of working in a toxic workplace.
It has cut deep in my heart and I just can’t get over it.
There is a lot of anger and bitterness inside me. And I wondered how do I get it out of my system for many years.
Whenever I shared what I am going through with anyone close I know, the response was ‘Just let it go..Forgive and forget’. I wish it was that easy.
I am aware that I am not alone. Almost everyone goes through these experience and we find it hard to forgive such people.
I was also exploring they ‘Why’ it isn’t easy for people to forget. The problem is we have a tendency to ruminate. We get obsessed with those incidents and it becomes a repeated cycle and difficult to come out of it.
I have tried many techniques like writing on paper, letting go off my anger and then burning the paper. It did not work for me.
Finally, I decided to tell myself that I have a big heart and I must forgive them. I understand that they are humans as much as I am.
It doesn’t matter if they destroyed my career, my family, my life. I wish them well, good health and lots of success in life. I forgive them.
I will bounce back in life. I have the strength and faith in Him. He will guide me. He had something better planned for him and they were the messenger to get me out of corporate mediocrity.
I have discovered my passion and start a fresh life. I have met many well wishers too in the past few years. I am obliged to guide my well wishers should they face a similar situation in life.
I let go of all the anger inside me. I have no bitter feelings anymore. I am free of the past. It was important for me to share this with the world.
Life will only get better from now on.